Three weeks ago I put the last of my NYC “stuff” out on the curb and hoped for my neighbors to recognize something valuable there. The next day I landed in Colorado with one suitcase, a cat-carrier and a whole lot of trust in myself, in Joseph and in Newton’s first law. I had long been moving steadily forward and I didn’t expect a simple shift a few miles west to represent any perceivable external force that would slow me down. Right.
And here I am still in motion. I bike on a cute teal ten-speed and drive with the top down in a sexy red Miata. I recognize the voices of the Colorado Public Radio announcers. I know folks about town, have appointments for volunteer gigs, and have made friends with the postman, who — with the same route for 26 years — knows just about everything about everybody in the neighborhood and seems willing to share it. On Friday night I wore heels to a CSU donor social and on Saturday night I wore sandals and hugged the curves on a go-kart track under a barely perceptible moon. Last week I bought heirloom tomatoes from the farm stand down the road and today chatted with the entomology student who was identifying brilliant dragonflies in the CSU test gardens. I am out and around and in motion.
I am grabbing great hunks of Fort Collins and sifting through it to find the bits that will make this new place feel like mine.
Sometimes I am impatient. It isn’t always easy to be testing the grounds to see if the earth below you shifts with the weight of your footsteps.
Yet on Sunday, when Joseph and I danced a few steps in his living room to no particular music (though I think the rhythm was somewhere between The Doors and Cuban Salsa), I had to concede that I am willing, now, to match my rhythm to another. Bumble as I may, it’s nice to dance close.
When I am impatient to have my path, a recognizable one where my feet fall firmly, I recall the miracle of germination. It takes a full three weeks of the right warmth and light for a variegated-leaf salmon flower impatiens to even stick its head above ground.